Extract from: The Dairy of a Broken Heart.. #2

You were like that one dream that came true only to be taken away from me.  Yet I know that if I existed you will also live, and somewhere close, somewhere nice. A fairy land perhaps, or in a place where dreams come true. And I will meet you, because if I don’t, I will forever on search for you until I can find you.

Yet it is our destiny, to meet against all odds only to be taken away from each other. I must have done something nice to have met you, however brief the time I spent with you is the time of my life that I will remember, even when age erases all else from my mind.

Life has such absurd ways to test ones strength, I thought I could never break, yet I break every night when I think of you. I thought I could never bleed, yet my heart bleeds every night at the loss of your touch. Will life ever bring us together again, I don’t know. But what I know is that no matter what life brings to my life you will always be the sun of my sky, the light of my darkness, you are and forever will BE that one part of me, the one that hopes.

If fate has written sadness for us, it will come, delayed maybe but it will come, so here I am, gathering all my pain in these small tears that burn through my soul. This is all I have left to remind me that you were that one dream that came true. The one dream that was taken away from me.

So once again I hope against all hopes, I pray against all odds, and wish from all my soul andwhat’s left of heart, to keep you where ever you are happy. I know, sounds lame. But to wish for something that is not made for you is a waste of a completely good wish. So what do I do now? Should cry, I do that already, shall I prayer, I do that too, every night for thousands of time I whisper in god’s ear to make this hurt go away, but that can only be done with you by my side, which is not for me.

So I wish on the moon and stars, I wish on the night where we first met, to keep happy, maybe in the sound of your laughter I can find my smiles, maybe in the glimmer of your eyes I can find my sight. And maybe just maybe, I you r happy heart I can find the courage to fix mine.

32 Universal Truths About Men

Recently so many of my friends have started coming to me and asking me to advice them. There are so many problems when comes to relationships, and even though everyone thinks that women are complicated, what I think is that there are so many facets to a man’s personality that its more difficult to know what he would want.

For girls its always the fairy tale and the princess charming, but for guys, sometimes its Cameron Diaz, sometimes Megan Fox, one minute they’ll totally be into Angelina Jolie and the other it will be Scarlett Johansson. They are so confused, so I decided on writing down 32 things a man would say or think…

So here it goes..

  

1. Why should I remind you that “I love you?” I already told you once.
2. I hate arguing with you. I’d much rather find a compromise.”Baby please adjust”  
3. I love long hair. I don’t care if it’s 50 degrees.
4. I need to be told “no” sometimes. But I’d rather not. 
5. Please don’t ask me how you look unless you’re willing to trust my answer.  
6. My eyes notice other women a lot ‘more’ when you are upset with me.
7. I expect you to be ready when I pick you up. Even if I get late.
8. Cigarettes make any woman look cheap and easy. But they are classy and stylish for a man.
9. I'm scared if I let a woman inside my heart, she'll take advantage of me. (it’s just the sex)
10. You did something hurtful. If I never bring it up. (I’m considering leaving you)
11. I don’t read minds. (Remember, I’m not a woman)
12. If I’m losing my hair, it’s not funny. (even though he makes fun of your weight)
13. When I talk to you about golf and you act bored I hate it. (even though I’m busy to hear whatever you have to say)
14. The woman I love is easy to please. (because I don’t have to put too much effort into anything)
15. I hate being told what to do when I don't ask for help. It makes me feel like you're my mother. 
16. If you sleep over, I might eventually marry you, but I'm less motivated. 
17. It makes me feel like you trust me when you ask for my advice.(even though I would never want yours)
18. It feels competitive when you insist on being in charge.
19. I hate it when you minimize, ignore or tell me I don’t trust you.(even though I do the same things several times)
20. I’m more insecure than you think. Why do you think I need your respect so much?  
21. I don’t always know how I feel. That’s why I don’t tell you.
22. I don’t need you to do things for me. (I really do want you do so many things). 
23. If I do one thing and say something contradictory (I’ll always say the same to you)
24. I find myself wanting to please you (like a favor).
25. I really don’t want to hear about any of your ex-boyfriends, regardless of the point. (even if it means sharing your life)
26. If I don’t share what I’m thinking, it’s because I don’t think you will listen without interrupting. (I’m absolutely blank, I’m not thinking anything)
27. I don’t like to argue and I don’t like to guess what’s wrong. Just tell me so I can fix it.
28. Don’t ask me, “Are you going to wear that?” when I’m already dressed.
29. A gentleman should always be respected by his lady in public, even if she is disagreeing with him. (even if is a jerk)
30. If you cheat on me, it is nearly impossible for me to get over it.(but when I cheat I expect you to forgive me)
31. I don’t remember everything about our relationship but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you.
32. I need some time to myself to calm down when I’m upset so that I don’t say something I will regret.  

High Heels to High Confidence

Research shows that the reason most women wear high heels is that it boasts their confidence and somehow allows them to have a high level of esteem for themselves.

So what is it about a 6 inch high, heel piercing spike that makes a woman want to walk on it all day..

I for one, somehow feel that only a woman very sure about herself and extremely comfortable in their skin can carry off a pair of mind melting heel. Someone who is insecure and already thinks lowly of herself will never be able to achieve the right kind of balance.

High heels also create a nicer figure, they elongate your leg & create a more toned shape with the added advantage of increasing your height and they even make your bum look nicer. It actually gives you a certain level of confidence to wear high heels too.

There's just something about slipping on a high heeled shoe that does that to you. For me it’s about the pleasure of wearing heel and looking down at people. And the sound they make - it's the sound of class, femininity, it's sexy and empowering. When you walk through a long silent corridor with nothing but the clicking of your high heels and everyone turns to look at you, that a statement one makes.

High heels are uncomfortable and make walking more difficult. Prolonged use can injure the feet, knees and back. So why do women keep wearing them?

Yes! The short answer seems to be that shallow. Women in heels are more likely to attract favourable notice.

In Sense And Sensibility, Jane Austen describes the character Elinor Dashwood as having a "delicate complexion, regular features, and... remarkably pretty figure". But Austen describes Elinor's sister, Marianne, as "still handsomer. Her form, though not so correct as her sister's, in having the advantage of height, was more striking".

In addition to making women taller, high heels force the back to arch, pushing the bosom forward and the buttocks rearward, thus accentuating the female form.

Someone great shoe maker from the past said something about the science of the high heeled shoe - it does something to stimulate the wearer sexually. By the angle or pressure or something, I don't know if it's true though.

But what I do know is that for any woman anytime it is very important to respect herself and to feel very secure about herself, it doesn’t matter how she looks, also not indicating that wearing high heel would make you prettier but that will be one thing you do for yourself.

To wear a pair of hurting shoes and walking in them all day is your choice, one that you make. So out of the 10 choices you this week keeping your family, your work, your guy in mind, this is one that is all about yourself. Can you love yourself before anyone else, because that is exactly what high heels teach you, to take responsibility of yourself and no one else for just one day.

For me high heels are like a calling, there is nothing that can cheer me up more than a pair of pretty shoes on a bad day. I can shop for clothes but they won’t be of any use if I turned fat, or they just may not suit me in any way but shoes, they always look nice, every kind and each type. They will not disappoint me and they will give that one extra bit of confidence if nothing else can motivate me.

Call of a Broken Heart

When all else fails I turn to the night because that is where I found you . . Under the moon walking the street alone. That's where I go now looking for you but you have moved on.

When we first met the world was a gloomy place, its the same for me now, you were the sun of my sky that shone to bring me the light. For a brief period of time I thought that life was like this . . That life could mean so much more than it ever meant.

I never realised that living a day and reaching the night that didn't have you could even be possible. Every day of my life, every minute of each passing hour there was only one thought in my mind, that was you.

Everytime I broke down, you collected all the pieces and somehow put me back together. I'm no puzzle, not difficult at all but there are things in life that I can't change or say without complicating yet you understood everything, my need for silence, my want of your touch, my craving for your voice.

I don't think that there will ever be me without you in it. No matter how far you go, no matter where I be, your essence is embedded in every cell of my body, each time you gathered me in your arms, you left a little bit of you inside of me. There is not one beat of my heart that doesn't say your name.

Even you are not here and I am, I only think about you. Not a moment passes when I don't want to be with you. So when all else fails, and I'm no where to be found, this is where I'll be, waiting, listening and loving. Yes, loving with all the broken pieces of my heart I will be loving you and waiting right where it started and right where you left me.

And if ever you need me, just remember all you need to do is close your eyes and think of me. You are the life that makes me want to live, so I'll come, somehow anyhow I'll come.

For you I'd cross the feilds of hell and still be there right where you want me. Yes for you, my life, my soul and my existence, for you.

The Beauty & The Beast

So the thing about big green monsters is that they are suppose to be scary, they are suppose to make us fear every big object capable of hurt. But sometimes maybe just sometimes, when we see a big, huge even person who looks capable of destruction may be he is something else, something that we overlooked.

Yes, yes I've been watching movies again, but then movies are based on someone’s epiphany, or an inspiration struck at late hours in night. Either way, movies to come from the minds of people and are made for the thoughts of other people.

So I'm not a green fan but every time I see The Hulk I start thinking . . And think and think and think . . So he gets angry and smashes everything in his ravenous fits yet when he sees his girl somehow something inside him triggers and makes him think again makes him feel again. Like I always say love can conquer all but its just amazing so astonishing, it is a phenomenon that can only be seen in the eyes of a lover ready to give up the world to see the other half of his heart again. From what I reckoned it must take the heart the size of an ocean to do something like such but then maybe the heart of a hulk is big enough.

Not everyone can handle the anger and rage but if you look carefully the relationship between Bruce Banner and Betty is not about managing anger but about how the eyes of the beast can recognize the heart and love a girl has for the man inside of him. It’s so much about finding that little part inside the hulk which is still holding on to the reality . . A part him that also what's to be found by someone who wants him.

Since I have been studying so much writing styles and techniques these days I start viewing everything in the light of the same. The maker of The Hulk has actually made a movie of much satirical reference wherein he makes a mockery to the government which could force a common man to become big and angry. That's one thought, which needs much attention from everyone. But back to the love story since I'm such a great love analyst and strategist I like to think that the big bang happened because of abundance of love inside it . . A closed structure cannot contain that much love so it exploded to make more space. I also like to speculate that everything that works properly in this world is because the small particles of love connect everything together and where ever they are wiped clean that is where the dis-functioning starts.

When a beast as unintelligent as the Hulk can understand it, then the possibility of it being difficult is absolutely zilch.

Its not love that's complicated, its the people and their expectations that's threatens the happiness. Love is simple, patient and kind, it does not require the public show off or the private promises, all that love requires is a heart that beats identically to the other.

The motto or the moral that the Hulk teaches us is that, all a good relationship requires is a heart willing to find the hope to carry on, it requires someone who can find you even when you can't find yourself. 

Damon Salvatore - Part 2

He Does, Now & Forever..

This is the story of a man un-dead

For redemption his soul bled

He gave it all up for a love lost

Wanting it back at any cost

For a century he has been awake

Putting everything that’s left on stake

Driven by the love he never got

Not caring if he ever got caught

He does, yes he does, now and forever

Hoping for something he could have never

The heart of a human in the body of the dead

Only for her his existence plead

Killing & tormenting to keep the cover

Not showing anyone the vulnerable lover

More than a thousand sins done

He is a man always on the run

Never stopping to look or care

Never getting a chance at the fair

All he ever wanted was her

If not, yes death he would prefer

Yes he does, now and forever

Hoping for something he could have never

The love of one woman, just her

Every abomination for it he could suffer

For a long time now

No one asked him how

He became a murderous beast

Never finding the man deceased

Alone all this time

Committing so much crime

Picking up pieces for his broken heart

Never wanting a new start

All he ever wanted was her

Just the one thing he could get never

The touch of her hand, a kiss on her cheek

For someone to see the man in him so weak

He dedicated his existence to her

But she didn’t look back, not ever

He waited and waited till the end of time

She didn’t care, not even a dime

She loved another

Yes it was his little brother

Yet he waits for his moment to come

For her to finally succumb

He would build her a new world if she gave him the chance

But she never ever spares him a second glance

Even then does, now and forever

Hoping for something he could have never

Damon Salvatore

For one hundred and forty five years he has been in love with one person. One Person. And after all this time it’s that one person’s love he craves the most. So what’s wrong with that?

Well for one, men in this age don’t love like that, a kind of love that fuels you to live and not just a life, but your existence, a love that last for a hundred and forty years has to be a reason not just a situation.

I know it’s not possible for someone to fall in love with a fictional character but, it’s so difficult not to. If I ever got a chance I would fall in love with Damon Salvatore, not because he is that hot and has eyes like burning amber, but because, even after being dead for over a century he has more heart than any other man who is living. Even if it meant he would extinguish every last drop of blood from my body it would be worth it because the time I would get to spent with him, I could at least try and show him that his dead heart can live again, that there is someone who is willing to spend a century of her life waiting for him.

He tries so hard to convince the world of his evilness, he makes it so easy for everyone to judge his motives as.. as destructive. But all he is trying to do is hide that fact that he is scared, scared that if he fails he would lose the few people he still has in his life. It’s a kind of fear, the fear of being lost and spending eternity with nothing in his life, he didn’t choose to be what he is, but if he has to survive he has to do something and being bad is just so much more easy than being good just to get hurt again.

I don’t believe in vampires but a part of me still hopes that there can be a man like that, someone who can make loving me the reason for his existence. It’s difficult, nearly impossible yet every time I read or see you - Damon Salvatore, I start hoping for the unimaginable.

Its not every day that you come across someone who is willing to risk everything for you, but in the world of fiction it is not uncommon at all, in fact a lot of the recent love stories revolve around eternal love and how lovers would come together after a struggle. But each one of them would try to be the selfless person, someone who tries to give up being with the person they love the most so that they can protect them from whatever they think is so dangerous and life threatening.

Not once since I started reading or watching the Vampire Dairies has he been that selfless lover who tries to push the woman he loves away, which is the best part. Ok! So he may act bad or evil but he at least doesn’t leave her behind to mourn his absence, in fact he stays there establishing an unsaid vow that no matter what, he would be there, that no matter how flawful he is, he belongs to her and that is what true love is. It is not in the giving up but in the perusal.

Sometimes I wonder how death will be like? Will it be like you, will it have you, I sure hope it does, because in that one quick second between life and the afterlife I will have a fraction of a moment with you, and that Damon Salvatore, will be enough to show that there is someone else like you, someone who still believes that against all odds if you truly love someone you can be with them.

Extract from: The Dairy of a Broken Heart..

Yes it's that look, the same one which sees right through me, it overlooks all the barriers I've made, of confidence and indifference. You can, only you can still see the girl in me, the girl who believes in love and hopes, still hopes that in the end everything all be alright.

The ironical thing is that you are the one person who broke my heart, shatter it so that it could never be whole, yet you are the one who has the ability to fix it in an instant and make it beat to the pace of your blinking eyes.

Is it even possible? That something which has been broken already can be break once more, taking you through the same pain again & again & again till you can't feel anything other than pain.

I can't see much these days because my eyes are always filled with tears, I can't breath much either, because it hurts when i inhale anything other than your scent, I can't speak much because when i open my mouth all that comes out are coughed sobs and   frightening wails.

And most of all I don't live much since you left me, because the effort of waking up to day that does not have you, or reaching a night which won't have your whispers of promises is just not worth the effort...

My heart even though broken & imperfect will belong to you.. if you would ever accept it..

What's your Rashi? - Part 2

TAURUS

Understanding the Taurus man is not an easy task.

Taurus men prefer long-lasting relationships and seek to build strong alliances.

He’s all about putting down roots: the family, the perfect mate to grow old with, and a beautiful home to share.

You may also observe that he's slow to move to action, deliberate and careful but that does not mean he is not romantic or affectionate, he just takes time to settle in and display what everyone else already knows.

Realizing that a Taurus man is someone who can do something unexpected to shock you helps in understanding the Taurus man.

A Taurus man is very patient with other people, but very impatient with himself. His world is always turning and it will not stop just because he loves you.

The Taurus man wants to pursue you, even against all odds. Why? Because if he’s moved his lazy ass enough to chase you, he intends to make it worth the trip.

It's perfectly true that the bull isn't a wild dreamer.. and will never sweep you off your feet or promise to take you floating away to live with him in a fairy castle, drifting on pink clouds forever and a day. When the bull lifts you across his threshold and plants you firmly in his substantial home, which won't bear the faintest resemblance to a fairy castle, you can be sure that this is the HOME you've been waiting for.

You'll wonder why you ever wanted to be wrapped in those pink clouds, once you've been warmly and snugly enfolded in the soft Taurean blanket of security.

Taurus is the sign of the Bull and just like a Bull, he also tend to be very strong headed. However, he exercises perfect control and understanding over himself and is usually calm and composed. His stubborn streak shows only when anyone tries to push them too hard in the wrong direction.

A Taurus man loves unity and the aspect of family. Someone attracted to a Taurus man can’t already see up front that they are “down” for anything and would almost always be willing to do anything for you. But there is a price to pay for being with a Taurus man. He is very possessive, controlling and insecure.

Yes, he’s demanding as hell, but he repays you with unparalleled loyalty. If you’re tired of complaining to friends that “men don’t commit,” or you’re ready to start a family, set your sights on a Taurus. You see, the real adventure with Taurus begins after the commitment. 

Be his woman, and you couldn't ask for a better man. No one else will ever treat you with such gracious consideration. He really deserves to be respected for it. Taurus love is simple, plain and honest. His affectionate nature and flattering attention will make you sure you are loved, in spite of all your little faults and failings that other men would constantly criticize. Taurus gives enduring loyalty and devotion, with a faithful heart.

Taurus man has a lot of hidden insecurities that he purposely shows to his partner to see if she will hold him even tighter as a signal that he cares even more about you.

Get a nice, furry, fluffy blanket (Taurus loves things that feel soft to the touch), tuck it around him & read him a nice story. Be sure you feed him a nice home cooked meal & kiss him good night. Then you're sure to have a strong, gentle man, who will protect you from all the storms.

Contentment is the word for a relationship with a Taurean

What’s your Rashi? – It’s a start

Ok, so once again a few things to say before beginning, I'm writing this mostly because I believe in Zodiac Signs and often end up telling people about the traits of people they are fond of, so what I'm trying to do here is put together little thing about the Men of every Zodiac.. it gives you general idea of the person but it may not apply to them completely 'cause everyone has a different personality

So lets start..

ARIES

The words for an Aries Man, Confident, Extravagant & Childlike.

So they would not remember the simple rules. Happiest when they are in charge of situations, Aries natives have a competitive side that surfaces whenever they are in large groups of people. Aries can overwhelm you with passionate ardour one minute, and be as icy as a polar bear the next.

Impatience is another one of the Aries Man's virtues, he's too impatient to master the finer points of courtship so you can forget that. The Aries man has a very specific, grand and demanding vision for his ultimate relationship. 

When it comes to love, his heedless attitude is absolutely amazing. He'll plunge into an affair, positive that this is the only true love ever known by any two people ever born, with the possible exception of Romeo and Juliet.

But if it doesn't work out he will try.. and try soo much to bring the dead back to life but when it doesn't work out that way, he will move on to find his next Juliet like it's the first time again. No matter how many romantic mistakes he makes, he is sure his true love or soul mate is just around corner like the next dream.

So the way to tackle him is to most importantly support his independence & freedom, do not try, I repeat do not try to tie him down with commitment, he is one of the most honest and devoted men, he will tell you if he thinks that it is not working out instead of cheating, but the more you lay your insecurities on him, the more he will feel suffocated.

He is the MAN, The minute he loses authority on the job or in the home, his refreshing optimism will turn to moody discontent and finally, complete disinterest. The Aries man is incredibly proud and fascinated of everything his can do. And you'd better be, too. There's usually plenty to appreciate.

This won't always be an easy relationship. There could be episodes of screaming, tears, hurled objects and slammed doors with your warrior prince. He can take you to the edge of a mental breakdown. But for when it's all over and your are still by his side, there will be a tender kiss for every bad word said and a promise for every broken wine glass which he will keep.

If you finally succed in being the Juliet that gets her happy ending, you will have man who cherishes every cell in your body. But reaching there.. that's quite a challenge if you're a romantic, and of course you are, or you wouldn't be with an Aries man in the first place.

Background Music: Someone Like You – Eric Clapton

If he ever sings that for you.. or even feels half of what this song means, consider yourself the luckiest girl in the whole world

I've Been Searching for a Paradise

.. So it's not a story or a thought.. these are just some lyrics I wrote for my friend a long time ago.. and then later I tried to convert it into a long poem..

The night is filled with stars,
yet the moon stays alone.
My heart is filled with scars
and my pain has grown.

I wonder a lonely street,
Searching for something new.
A place where two hearts meet,

A place where I can see you.

All my life,
I've Been Searching for a Paradise
looking in all the wrong places,
When I've got you right in my heart
why travel to the empty spaces.

Everyone wants a fairytale
strong ties and nothing frail.
White horses and a charming prince
assurance time & again to convince.

No one wants tears or a broken heart
No one wants the end without a start.
But my love my heart will always be,
yours forever you shall see.

All my life
I've been searching for a paradise
looking in all the wrong places.
Should've just seen it in your eyes
Your love bluer than the skies

You believed in me,

When no else could even see

The heart in my voice

And the burden of my choice.

Never once leaving my hand,

You walked besides me in a desert of quick sand

Inspiring me to fight all my fights,

Yes yes you were absolutely right

Love is better than a paradise,

From what you fall, to that you rise

It is in you I find my peace

The end to my journey

In you I find my Eden,

Yes you are my Destination

 

 

The Love Letter

To my dearest,

I’m not sure you remember me, but we’ve met before. You came to my dream last night and we talked.. when you smiled you had my undivided attention .. when you laughed you had my urge to laugh with you.. when you cried you had my urge to hold you. ..when you said you loved me, you had my heart forever.

Every time I’m around you all I really want to do is look at you, just sit there and see in the depth of your eyes, things you never say and feeling you don’t express. You make me smile just by gazing in my direction, you don’t do much but when you smile, oh!.. when you smile.. it’s like a hundred butterflies playing in my stomach that rush up to my cheeks and make me blush so much..

We don’t talk a lot.. we don’t talk at all sometimes but when I hold your hand I know that no matter what happens, I will always have you by my side. You make me feel like a teenager all over again, sneaking around, passing secret smiles, walking around aimlessly just to see each other, you bring out a side of me I thought I had lost a long time ago.

It's been said that you only truly fall in love once, but I don't believe it because every time I see you, I fall in love all over again. It is a new feeling each time to just stand up so I can see you, it’s a new adventure every time I slip you an anonymous letter and you smile because you know it’s from me.

you have made me understand that love is not blind; it simply enables one to see things others fail to see, it is like an earthquake-unpredictable, a little scary, but when the hard part is over you realize how lucky you truly are.

Everyone always told me that you’re not the right guy, that you don’t care. I’ve always felt so different about you.. I knew you would never hurt me.. I knew you were a part of me just as much as a I am a part of you. You display yourself to the world in such a way that every one is scared of you.. yet you are the one who is scared.. to love and be loved in return.. you portray yourself as someone filled with faults .but your “flaws” are the greatest things about you, and they aren’t flaws at all.. 

Yours Forever..

When Waiting for Someone..

Spoiler Alert: before I even begin writing I have to tell you this is one of those pieces when I don’t know what I writing about and hoping that by the end of the whole activity I will be able to draw some meaning from it.

So the past two days of my life included a whole lot of waiting.. for something and someone..

Like day before when I was flying from Delhi to Bangalore I was at the airport 1 hour early as a result of my exasperated overly anxious nerves I ended waiting on the airport lounge.

So this one hour that I was waiting I didn’t want to hear music scared that I might miss the announcement and I didn’t want to read thinking that I’d get too engrossed and lose trace of time (I did mention before that I was overly nervous as I was travelling absolutely alone for the very time).. so even though it seemed rude I started ogling the people sitting on the bench in front of me.. very discreetly.

First there was an old couple sitting in front of me, the lady was constantly doing something with her hands, like soothing her saree, checking her pursing, cross-checking her boarding card and her husband was looking at her intently as if everything she did held a meaning, after a while he got up and went somewhere… her eyes kept searching for him through the thick crowd of people…

After a say about 10 minutes he reappeared holding two cups of steaming something in his hands (my best guess is coffee).. a big smile engulfed the old lady’s face for a minute I really thought that by this simple gesture that her husband had done she grew a year younger, blushing and looking at him with sheer love..

“Yeh lo.. thodi kum thandi lagegi” the old man simply handed her the cup but in that small gesture I could see that he really knew his wife..

After their drink of coffee the woman sat there content without fidgeting even once.. I was soo surprised.. that the man actually did understand right that his wife was feeling cold due to which she was restless..

Well their flight got announced and they went.. after them came a guy.. OH.MY.GOD.

He really was that punctuated.. I mean ok he wasn’t very tom cruise’ish’ but if he tried a bit he wasn’t all that bad.. what made him really punctuated were his extreme low waist jeans that gave a clear view of this jockeys .. (Ugh.. nothing I’d like to observe there!) and his constant head banging..

I thought he must be listening to some Metallica rhythm to which sometime you really can’t help yourself.. but you can tell what is real and what is make believe.. whenever a girl crossed him he would bend a bit more and start swishing his head harder, though no one gave him a second look but I dread what would have happened if he had gotten any attention.

He was just trying so hard I almost felt bad for the guy but I think he actually thought that he was the coolest guy around.. I mean he definitely needed a reality check.. and just when I was forming an opinion about him he did something I didn’t expect him to.

A few kids were playing around him and one crashed on him sending his extremely expensive iPhone flying in some direction, he immediately got up but the phone had already landed on the floor opened in 2.. for a minute there I thought he would hang the kid but he simply got up picked his phone put it together and switched it on.

The kid who was the other vehicle in this accident was standing where he had crashed very still as if expecting to be slapped this instant, but instead of scolding the kid, the just told him very gently to be careful next time and even offered him his phone to play games so that he doesn’t crash into anything else.

I was almost about to list the guy as a jerk, but he changed my opinion in less than a minute..

So maybe what I’m trying to say is that in one hour of just sitting and looking around I got a chance to share a little part of 4 people’s lives which made me think that we are too quick to pass judgements like, she was restless, he is very careless or that kid is very naughty..

But if you just wait and look there will always be a second part of the story.. a different vantage point waiting for you to look from.. So maybe waiting for the flight wasn’t how I wanted to spend my morning but I did get something out of this.. I got to know (even if from a far) 3 different people I wouldn’t have noticed if I had buried myself in a book, it makes me feel very different, I don’t know if there is a word to describe this feeling. There are so many things I don’t know in the world, so many people I know nothing about… but maybe next time I would reach a different place a little before time just to see how someone else leads his/ her life, to know a little bit about them, to share even though very brief but a moment of their life.

The Thing About True Love..

Love love love love love love love… as I sit to write what I think is my next master piece after sharing love story with chocolate.. I can probably scribble love just as many time as before and not get bored..

So here it goes again..

Love love love love love love love…

Well since that’s out of the way now, I should start writing something that makes more sense. I am as most of you must have guessed a firm believer of true love, that comes from mostly being a diehard Shahrukh Khan fan but still there is no denying that I do believe in the concept of happily ever after.

No matter how much I stop myself after a heart break …. I still fall in love (so much for learning from your mistakes), the problem actually is not the falling in love part but the heart break, each broken relationship embeds one of its sharp tiny corners in your heart. At large you won’t feel that there is anything wrong with you yet sometime time last at night you’d wake up from sleep craving for a person who is already lost to you.

My theory is that even though we do move on in life and find someone to be with but we don’t really let go that one person who was the first to send us off in air like a shooting star with one look.

Though I don’t think that there is a way to forget that person, but what I do know is that if we hold on to him really tight we lose so many other people who could have made life so much better.

What we have to figure out that is if that one person that we are not ready to give up really worth all the other things that we are letting go.

I’m sure everyone who has ever fallen in love will agree with me that love really does feels like magic. Your heart soars with great excitement and anticipation. But being “in love” may or may not overlap with really loving someone. Is there a difference between “love” and “being in love”? It’s debatable. Some claim both can exist throughout a relationship. Others say the “in love” feeling is an idealization of the partner during courtship that can evolve into love.

Because if we think rationally and not a love struck teenager (me!) True love requires courage because this kind of love challenges your self-esteem and your potential to change your life or adjust to someone else’s lifestyle.

Yet we never give up because loving and being loved adds richness to our lives. Love helps us feel important, understood, and secure but what is the most important is that the person who is giving us this feeling of security received the same from us whole heartedly.

The perfect recipe for True love is:

2 loving caring and crazy hearts

1 teaspoon of Frivolousness

4 cups of deep conversations

Few butterflies for sprinkling

1 kiss that rise 10-on-10 on the spark-O-metre

 The kind of love we feel in romantic relationships is its own unique type of love that makes us feel like we are the only two people in the whole world. I know it can’t ever be like a Cinderella story there will always be someone who has hurt our heart, our special someone may have his/ her own flaws but really? At the end of a tiresome day when I have someone to go to, I don’t think that any of those things, because I know that no matter what I do, where I go I will always have someone to belong to.

Give the universe a chance, if your heart has been broken, give someone a chance to mend it. If your too scared, give yourself a chance to do something bravely stupid, something that you can remember in age old and laugh till your stomach hurt, if you are a really careful person do something rebellious something you have never done before.. FALL IN LOVE, knock yourself down… and yes get hurt, because a person who hasn’t felt sad or damaged will never know the joy of being happy and complete..

Like most renowned poets of our time say:

“See like just because this cold, cruel world
Saying we can't be,
Baby, we both have the right to disagree,
And I ain't with it.
And I don't wanna be so old and gray,
Reminiscing about these better days,
But convention's telling us to let go”

-       Justin Bieber

“Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all that's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say, YES”

-       Taylor Swift

Que Mata Chocolate

Man often wonders if he can find one medicine that could be the cure of all things, one medicine that could relieve of all kinds of ache & agonies, one syrup that would make your stomach feel alright and you can just go back on doing what you had been doing before.

Well here we are, I have the answer for that question and it’s very easy – CHOCOLATE

So there is no more moaning in night with back ache/ heart ache, no more jitters and most of all no more sadness.

Chocolate has this unique soothing quality that no else can have except for your mother when she decides that it’s time for you to suffer no more.

“One fairer than my love? The all-seeing sun … Ne'er saw his match since first the world begun."

I like to think of chocolate as a lover & companion, it supports you in every form it takes never to leave in any pain and always be there when you most truly need it.

"Did my heart love till now? Forswear it, sight!... For I ne'er saw true beauty till this night."

It amalgamates with everything you put it with, to serve only one purpose of making you happy.

And that’s not all, chocolate does not only undauntingly supports you in the most trying times it also makes you healthier, in mind, body & soul.

Cocoa contains flavanols, a type of flavanoid that is only found in cocoa and chocolate, these compounds act as antioxidants and help counteract free radicals in the body.

So not only does steaming cup of hot chocolate get me through a night after a terrible fight it also makes my body radical free.

Dark chocolate has been shown in studies to lower blood pressure in people with elevated blood pressure & eating dark chocolate on a regular basis has been shown to reduce LDL cholesterol by as much as 10 percent.

See the true love it has for you, when indulging yourself in a big bowl of choco chip ice cream, it’s not only making you happy & depression free but doing so much more.

Remember that time when every adult who saw you eating a chocolate had something to say,

“Oh! Boy what are you doing?.. eating chocolate is so bad for your teeth”.. “Oh! My my poor dearly girl doesn’t know what chocolate can do to her teeth..!”

Well gone are those day, the light has come and has the saviour.

Next time anyone tells you that eating chcocolate will kill your teeth jus flash a smile and tell him..

“Hey Dude! In case you didn’t know, lemme brush up your knowledge a bit. Research has found that the theobromine in chocolate prevents tooth decay by eliminating streptococcus mutans, a bacteria found in the oral cavity that contributes to tooth decay”

See there is nothing in the world that can love you so true and pure, so wild and crazy..

If the ever has to end, I’d rather die by your hand.. Muerte Por Chocolate.. Nothing can be sweeter